thoughts on fate and karmic episodes

__2004-07-18 @ 6:09 p.m._______ Good times, for a change See the luck I've had Can make a good man turn bad So please, please, please Let me get what I want Haven't had a dream in a long time See the life I've had Can make a good man...bad So please, for once in my life Let me get what I want Lord knows, it would be the first time Lord knows, it would be the first time These things that go on and pass through your life- the good ones that you wanted to last a little longer and the bad ones that you wanted to go away sooner- they all seem to run their own course. And while it may seem logical to obstruct its course, many times you later realize that the attempted obstruction is actually a part of its own life inside of your own. And when hindsight becomes 20/20, and time does the work of separating you from each of these experiences, you understand how it is all essential. You may not have liked certain parts and you may have loved certain parts, but to not try and understand how these things work and affect you is not to live your own life. I was wrong. Fate isn't on anyone's side. Fate is just something that comes out of a false sense of security. A blanket for when you can't understand or don't care to understand why. Why are you talented at doing one thing or another? I don't know if it's a combination of every choice I've ever made or if it's the right combination of chemicals in my brain. But like Jill said before me, to ascribe to fate is to say that all of these things that I do, all of these experiences that I have add up to some predetermined end. And how does luck play into fate? Is luck predetermined as well? And karmic episodes? Fate was never on anyone's side. Luck and karma, good or bad, seem to be much more believable to me. When so many things change in such a short period of time, it's kind of hard to not get in this mode of thinking. It's not like I always like to sit around and write about this shit. I would rather it be implied, but as it is I can't really think of much else to write about. << | >>