__2004-05-16 @ 12:17 p.m._______
I feel like I should update this thing. It was graduation weekend in Iowa City for the spring semester. I always seem to feel the changes in the air, even though nothing is really changing right now in my life. People leave, I stay, it's all the same. Last night a couple of people were getting a little teary eyed about so & so leaving and moving away and "I don't know what I'm going to do with my life" and "I feel lost," and "I like Iowa City" and "it's so strange that I'm not going to be in school any longer." Yes, Yes. It is a strange place to be. The sad thing is that I've lived here and seen it all repeat itself (without any direct involvement), for the last three years, and I can't seem to muster up any empathy. Not trying to be a jaded asshole here, but seriously, welcome to my life. Yes, it is quite a position to be in when you've graduated college and you're still unsure of what you want to do with your life. This is the ghost town of your memories. If you stay here, you have to be willing to be ok with this- Dancing with a memory on Dodge street, walking home alone to your humble abode, passing by dozens of people on a friday night, of which one in each group was a friend- now living in Chicago, San Fran, New York, and Minneapolis- that friend or acquaintance is now just a passer by look alike. Be comfortable with these ghosts in these scenerios. Or you could just skip all of this bullshit and leave Iowa City. Your fresh start awaits you.
Listening to the same things-
The Smiths- Strangeways, Here We Come
The Smiths- Louder Than Bombs
The Walkmen- Bows & Arrows
The Smiths- The Queen is Dead
Sun Kil Moon-Ghosts of the Great Highway
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